Never Alone

When the seasons change, and the darkness creeps in earlier in the Fall and Winter, of course, all the lights are on in our house. Inside and outside there are lights to light up the darkest of rainy, cold days and nights.  Even the wind seems to take on that howling type of sound you mainly hear only in the late winter.

But in years earlier, I experienced the darkest of the dark and the coldest of many days. For a period of time our marriage seemed more like a one-sided affair so to speak. Sometimes people have to make decisions to work more hours to have something set aside for retirement. But I sensed there was more to my husband's behavior than just some financial situations that had to be adjusted.

We can sense when someone is upset or even mad, right? But it seemed deeper and more dramatic and the hours together were harder than when he had to be away from me.
In this period of time, my husband had lost first his step-father and then his mother. Even though their deaths were three years apart, he seemed deeper in darkness than what I had thought he should be experiencing.
With the death of his parents, old things cropped up from his childhood that were anything but good. He had faced many beatings by a strap or belt. As the man no longer lived, my husband faced those times alone, he thought.
While he was working through many challenging things he had experienced of his childhood, I faced something I had not expected. In the course of only a few months, my body became very fatigued and needed more than the nine hours sleep I usually got. I would force myself out of bed and into work clothes, only to return several hours later and resort to the bed for the needed rest.
Finally making the appointment, the G.P. could not help and sent me to a specialist, who then sent me to another specialist. After three months, they found the mass growing on my ovary. Surgery would be needed to remove it and have a hysterectomy, but I sensed that God was close by my side.

Yes, it was the end of August and darkness seemed to creep in earlier, even though it was summer time by the calendar, it seemed more like the middle of winter time. The day finally came in September and that ugly thing was removed and I was whole 100 percent.
What helped me, when my husband was away so much of the time? I had no other family within a four hour drive from where I lived. I seemed invariably alone with no outlet.......But............

I had God! I had Jesus the Healer! I had the Holy Spirit who was my Comfort through those long, and darkest of days. I chose to hear God speak. I would speak His word daily, so I could hear it and the neighbors as well. I would put healing CD's and teaching tapes on healing. I kept the Word of God flowing. I added praise and worship music and pray in the spirit. (your prayer language in Tongues)

He was all I needed to make it through a dark place in my life!

No, we are never alone! We must know that He is there and cares so much for us.

Visit those passages of scripture should you need some lifting today..........whatever I experienced I gave thanks, no not for the ugly mass but for the goodness and love of God and to know He watched over me. It is not easy to do some days, but if you keep it up, you will come out of that "deep hole" and know that God has a way for you.

Remind yourself of these things:
Lamentations 3:22-23....the steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.

Psalm 107:20...he sent His word and healed them, and delivered them from their destructions

Isaiah 43:2....when you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and though the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through the fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.

Psalm 34:15...........the eyes of the LORD are toward the righteous and his ears toward their cry.

Psalm 34:18...The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.

God has a plan for you and He is not through with you yet!
You are saved by His grace...Ephesians 2:5
You are a new creation....Ephesians 2:15
You are a partaker of His promises in Christ...2 Peter 1:4
You are strengthened with might by His Spirit.......Ephesians 3:16
You allow Christ to dwell in your heart by faith...Ephesians 3:17
You are more than a conqueror...Romans 8:37
You are the healed....1 Peter 2:24
You are free....John 8:36
You are victorious....1 John 5:4

When I prayed for me, I continued to pray for my husband and others as well. It was not just about me and what I was experiencing. I chose to let the Light of God shine on the situation and came out of the darkness and the cold. I experienced the love of God!

Sometimes, we may think we are the "only ones" who go through things, but we are not. Those who stand the closest to us all face something either daily or monthly. What we choose should be life in God and His ways!

It took almost 10 years for my husband to come through that pain and anguish, but he is stronger in the Lord. My husband and I walk side by side to minister God's Word to others. I pray that you will know that you are not alone and God, alone has the answer you need!

Five years earlier I had put this prayer together and I send to you today:
Father, this is the day the Lord has made. I rejoice and I am glad in it! I rejoice in You always. And again I say, I rejoice. I delight myself in You, Lord. Happy am I because God is my Lord! Lord, I pray that my countenance radiates joy of the Lord. My joy I pray is overflowing so it may be full, complete for the joy of the Lord is my strength. Father, today I have the victory in the name of Jesus. Satan is under my feet.
I pray also for my husband for I know YOU intended that the greatest most rewarding human relationship in my life would be my marriage. Help us to resolve any differences that we have had. Rekindle in our hearts the love, joy and passion we had for each other when we were married. Help us to forgive the mistakes we have made and start fresh again. Help me as his help-mate be sensitive toward him. Reveal to me areas I need to change in order for our relationship to improve. Help us to guard our mouths so we not criticize each other. Show us how to love and give love to our spouse. Let our lives be an example of Your love and grace. Lord restore our marriage completely and I give you much thanks. It is in the mighty name of Jesus I pray. Amen




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